Why I Started Blogging?

The original reason why I started to blog and started to write down a lot more of my ideas is actually a lot simpler than you may think. I just wanted to put out my ideas into the world but did not know how to do it. It actually started out even more simply because I would originally start to write down ideas and topics around what I wanted to talk about. I didn’t yet know how it was that I was going to get these ideas but I knew I had to do it somehow. I would start to expand the ideas that I was writing down and really started to see how much I loved just writing down my ideas. I still did not know how it was that I was wanting to get my messages out into the world though. I had so many ideas that I considered to be great ideas and those ideas were just dying inside of my mind. There is so much creativity that I have been wanting to do that I have been either afraid of doing because of the fear of seeming “corny” or the fear of being judged by others. I finally realized that if I do something or not, I will be judged no matter what, so why not actually be judged for at least trying to do something that I was wanting rather than the alternative of not doing anything that I was wanting and just living a life unfulfilled because I chose not to do anything with myself. I am very much an introvert and don’t really like to put myself out into the world like that but I realized that if I want to really make a difference in the world I had to get over that fear. I first started with a podcast that I was trying to do an episode at least twice a week. It didn’t work out too well for me and my heart wasn’t really into it, so a few weeks after I started the podcast I ended up quitting and started back at the drawing boards. So the next thing I started to look into was blogging. It was something I did not need to be on camera for, did not need to worry about how I sounded, it was only something I had to make sure that I spell-checked, edited, and put out into the world. So I started to look at how to blog and how to really get my work out. I first started with Tumblr because that is what I knew for blogging from years ago. Keep in mind this was in 2020. I did not know about people not being on Tumblr as much as they were before. I only ended up posting 2 blog posts and ended up deleting my account and ended up doing what all people do when they need an answer, I went to Google. I typed in “best blogging website” into Google. I saw the WordPress was the number one choice for most people. So I ended up creating an account and started to write. I was way more consistent and ended up liking the blogging that I was doing. Unfortunately, the issue I was having with WordPress was that it was a little too confusing for my liking and also some of the tools were outdated. So after a few months, I ended up deleting the whole website that I created. I loved blogging though and I stopped for at least 6 months. During that time I was watching YouTube videos, writing down ideas, and think about starting my blog again. I also wanted to start conquering my fear of being on camera and speaking. So I killed two birds with one stone and ended up making YouTube videos. It was and is one of the best decisions I have ever made in my life. Me seeing how I was able to conquer that fear gave me more confidence to start doing other things that I was really wanting to do. I started to make music, started to do things that normally I would not even think about doing. This brings me to where I am now with everything. I am making music when I want, I am blogging again, I am making YouTube videos and putting myself out into the world more and more every day. The more I start to see myself get out of my comfort zone the more I want to do it. And now this is me getting more comfortable with being uncomfortable.